Honestly, it's not very easy to start this blog back up. I dreaded signing back in and looking at my last post. For those of you who don't know, we found out we lost our baby March 25. I had a D&C the following Friday (March 27). This past three weeks has been the biggest emotional roller coaster I've ever been on in my life! We actually lost the baby at 8 weeks, but we didn't find out until I went to the doctor when I should've been 11 weeks. Talk about feeling lost and empty! They couldn't find the heartbeat on the 25th, so, they did another ultrasound. They found the baby, but no heartbeat or movement.
I've been an emotional basket case for 3 weeks. But through all of this, I have realized what I already knew from the beginning: God is always in control. He will never give us more than we can handle. The only control I have is over how much I give God to handle. And I've learned through this that, that's not much control! Matt and I have given it ALL to God. There's nothing to big for our God! It's not going to make things all roses, but it sure helps to know that He's got it all under control. All we can do is patiently wait on Him.
Please keep Matt and I in your prayers. It's been rough, but we know who holds tomorrow!
"Be still and know that I am God" Amen.
